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So long, and thanks for all the fish

Bring it!! Ask me anything~   I'm a 25 year old female from North Carolina.

I'm only here for the Ladies and the drinks... Also the lolitas, pretty clothes and cute cat gifs. This tumblr is proof of that. I'm a raver, I like to hoop dance, play video games and crochet and sew. My favorite bands are Late Night Alumni, Stars, Dir en grey, Kaskade, The Ditty Bops, and Perfume. I'm studying to be a cosmetologist.

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thepsuedosatanist asked: You're tokophobic?! Sorry if this seems weird it's just that I am too and it's really rare that I ever see anyone even know what it means let alone actually have it...



I’ve known a couple people with it. I don’t think it’s all too rare :P I just think a lot of people don’t know what to call it, what it is or maybe don’t want to talk about it.

FUN FACT: Emilie Autumn also has tokophobia 

I have it. Also the sight of most pregnant bellies - especially bare - gross me out. :/

It sucks because I know that if I end up with someone there is a biiiig chance they’ll want me to bear their child or if I end up with another woman if she wants to have a child herself I would not be able to deal with it. :c I don’t talk about it much to people because I know they’ll just say ‘oh, you’ll get over it once you meet the right person’ or ‘you’re still young - you’ll change your mind(although I’m nearly 26 and I’ve known I didn’t want children since I was very young)’ and stuff like that and I don’t want to hear it. I’ve kinda given up on finding someone and getting married because of it as well. It sucks.

— 2 days ago with 50 notes
#childbirth  #pregnancy  #personal  #also might be why I'm still a virgin :V 

So the gig went pretty well! I hooped on and off for about 3-4 hours and scored some pretty awesome clothes in the process. She had me in front of the store on the sidewalk to get more customers in. It actually worked too because a few people that walked in said they saw me and just decided to stop in to look! So I did my job, I guess. hahah

I think she expected me to stop around 6 because the last time I went out to hoop (shortly after 6) she was surprised. lol I kiiiinda wish I did stop though because that time some creeper came up to me and carried on a convo for like 5-10 minutes and at first it ok but then it quickly got very awkward and… ugh. Let’s just say he started a sentence with ‘now I know some girls can’t take compliments and I don’t mean this to be disrespectful or anything but…’


He also pulled out a blunt which would’ve been ok if we weren’t on the fucking sidewalk on a busy street. o_o It was a hot mess. I’ll gladly go into detail if you guys want to hear how much of a train wreck it really was. lmao

But other than that I got lots of compliments on my hooping, honks and cheers and a girl at the shop beside the one I was working for came out and started hooping with me for a bit! She was actually pretty good, too. xD And the little girls watching me cheesing mad hard was adorable, too. :3

The woman who hired me told me if I wasn’t free tomorrow to come out to another event she was doing and hoop if I’d like and I was totally down but my car is acting funny so idk if I’d be able to make that. :c But still it was a great opportunity and its nice getting out doing things like this on my own.

— 3 days ago with 2 notes
#hooping  #personal  #this is my life  #creepers gonna creep 
I might not be going to Tomorrowworld this weekend but…

I did just get a small little hooping gig for this Saturday! I’m not getting paid money BUT the person who I’m doing it for has her own vintage store/shop and says I can pick out whatever when I get there and I am alllll about getting awesome clothes in exchange for hooping for a couple of hours and I hope she has some tacky cat stuff! I had a really good feeling about this weekend. Gotta get some practice in in the next few days. :D

What do you wear to something like this, though? Hmmm…

Also next paycheck I’m getting my ticket for Zed’s Dead on the 3rd! idk who I’m going with but I’ve been wanting to see them forever so I gotta make it happen. o_o

— 5 days ago with 3 notes
#personal  #hooping  #aw yiss 

Just submitted an application for my first non artist alley vendor spot for a vintage/handmade show in Charlotte.

They said they were looking for ‘niche’ vendors and I guess I fit into that so I hope that gives me a better chance. I’m so nervous. >_<

— 3 weeks ago with 4 notes
#personal  #I've been editing and taking photos for the past 10 hours  #@_@  #I better get this 

So I ended up just ordering wings and fries from Pizza Hut, cracking open my bottle of Red Stag and now I’m in the middle of crocheting some bows.

I also just found out that there’s a pole dancing class tomorrow and I’m really considering going… but I’ve also been spending lots of money lately so idk. :/ I’ll try to do it my next paycheck, I guess. meh.

— 3 weeks ago with 3 notes


Let’s talk about love and distance and jealousy and phone sex.

— 3 weeks ago with 110 notes
#so pretty much my last serious relationship  #:V  #personal  #ldr 

I really wanna go out tonight or at least go get a bite to eat but I also don’t want to directly ask the people I want to hangout with if they want to hangout because I feel like they want nothing to do with me. The struggle is real.

— 3 weeks ago with 2 notes
#anxiety  #personal  #this is my life  #I'll try tomorrow  #idk  #ugh. 

Just reserved a room for EDC Orlando. Haven’t bought tickets yet because its still up in the air at the moment but just in case I find people to go with even if its last minute at least I have a room for us. XD;; I like to be prepared for all situations.

Its also not the hotel I want to stay at really - I wanted the Aloft. But its pretty expensive! I might change it depending on situations because it’ll be my birthday weekend and I should get what I want lol but we’ll see.

— 4 weeks ago
#edc orlando  #edc  #personal  #festivals 

Man. It really is great having a job that I actually like. I’m waiting for something to happen though because I’m enjoying it way too much and I’m not used to good things happening. >_<

My boss is pretty cool and chill. I gave her the heads up for an upcoming craft/vintage show coming up in November because applications had just opened and mentioned I might also apply for it also with my handmade things. She got excited and said if we both get chosen we should have our booths side by side. She also let us go home a bit earlier on Friday because she wanted to play Minecraft. lmao.

But yeah. I honestly can not wait to get paid because I’m thinking about getting me a new hoop, my first pair of gloves, and maybe going on a date of sorts… who knows. :3 And all the shows I can go to now omg!! Zeds Dead and Dillon Francis are coming to Charlotte soon and I’ve been really wanting to see them for the longest. And EDCO or one day at Tomorrowworld aren’t ideas that are completely ridiculous now that I have a job as long as I save up and can find peeps to go with. So I’m hype about that! But I’m trying not to get my hopes up >_<

— 1 month ago with 2 notes

That moment when for reference a couple of days later you go back to read a text convo you had while drunk and realize that the person you were texting was in fact actually coming on to you and it went over your head. And because of you being drunk you replied in a way that was completely stupid. Thanks tequila. XD

— 1 month ago with 1 note
#this is my life  #personal  #well shit